Dreaming

I have been dreaming about kisses and death.
The kisses are nice, sweet, strong and passionate.
The death is a massacre of sorts...
In one dream it is someone i dont know shooting at people and me.
Last night it was my stepfather after i told him i was gay.
he was shoot at me and at my family and strangers.
What are these dreams telling me?
My dreams tell me something they always do...

Venus

I had to leave Venus in my bed today.
I had to go to work in HELL.
I left her with the cat and the dog.
They will protect her, I know.
Damn, she was beautiful.
The way her back curves as she hugged my pillow.
The shape of her breast as she turned to kiss me.
The glow of skin.
The smell and taste of her neck.

I had to leave Venus in my bed today and come to fucking work.

She is good on the phone and in bed.
What is a girl to do?

S is good...
S is damn good.
My futon has never had so much fun.
Its going to be a fun summer.
Saturday was the best Saturday in a long time.
And I must say Jen was right.

I did it.
I asked for the key back.
The key was symbolic.
It wasn't just to my house, it was also to my heart.
With the key back, I have the right to give it and my heart to someone else.
I will stop pining for those that don't want me and find someone that does.

I have had a lot one my mind.
New drugs in my system.
I haven't blogged in a while.
I went to a palmist.
She said I was suppose to be married and have 2 to 3 children.
She said I had an entity with me (not a good one).
She said that 3 to 4 of my chakras were down.
she said a lot of things that no one knew.

I have some work do to.

S

S is my height. (shock and aww)
S is a grad student.
S is leaving really soon.
S is sexy and cute.
S is flirty.
S maybe coming this Saturday and I maybe cumming too.
S better be good.
S may want more than just a NSA or FWB.
I am not ready for more.
But if S was to return and I was feeling different then maybe there could be more.